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ALSO since I'm at like 14k comments and everybody is ICly on vacation does anyone want to do a question meme? :> (Yes, the answer is yes.)

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EXCUSE YOU, YOU'RE NOT MY MOM

Okay so, basically, Sarah is totally whipped by Cosima and knows it and is resigned to it, sigh. She loves her a lot and once you actually have Sarah's loyalty you have it forever, so, good job!!! Sarah at this point firmly considers them friends as well as sisters.

That still doesn't mean that Cosima doesn't frequently get on her nerves, though, because she does. Sarah frequently feels in over her head when it comes to Cosima's entire worldview, while simultaneously finding Cosima naive and too trustworthy, so it's very frustrating for her when she hears about Cosima, for example, making plans to vacation in the zombie apocalypse. On one hand, she's super pissed off because, god, doesn't Cosima think about how Sarah and Alison would feel if something happened to her? And on the other hand she's scared because, god, is Cosima seriously that delusional and optimistic? :I It's frightening.

The thing that Sarah really can't understand about Cosima is how much importance she gives to friendship and relationships. Sarah has formed some really good relationships in Camp, and has a handful of people she thinks of as Actual Friends even, but she'd still ditch them in a second if she thought it would help her situation and she had the opportunity. When she sees how Cosima would be willing to go to Eugene's world for vacation, or willing to meet Ruby's grandmother, or hears her pushing for Sarah and Sam's "relationship", she seriously has no real basis of understanding where Cosima is coming from. It freaks her out. It frustrates her. It scares her, because she honestly does think Cosima might decide to go with one of them when she leaves Camp. Because Sarah's whole thing is leaving before the other person can leave her, and this is preeetty much the one instance where she can't be the one who leaves first. She can't just hitch to another universe, because there'd be no way of bringing Kira and Felix with her. But Cosima doesn't have those extra relationships to ~tie her down~, so to speak, so the idea of simply ditching their clone problems by going to another universe is something that, to Sarah, must seem like an appealing and viable option for Cosima. So for Sarah it's a real fear.

REVERSE

WE TALK ABOUT THIS A LOT AND I'M FEELING INCOHERENT SO HAVE SOME RANDOM BULLET POINTS, let me know if you want more things!

-Sarah is definitely her closest sister (sorry Alison) and one of her closest friends and she loves her unconditionally forever
-BUT Sarah's thing with Eugene was really annoying! and bugged Cosima more than she let on and she sometimes gets annoyed with Sarah's avoidance of forming meaningful relationships with people! Cosima is this odd mix of logic and following her heart and she just doesn't get why Sarah would want to keep her distance!
-On that same note Cosima is just a little bit afraid that Sarah will run off on them again and try to push them away and yes, she's done it before but it would be so much worse now. Cosima got this whole family when she found out she was a clone and Sarah and Kira and Felix are all a huge part of that and she's very afraid of losing that if Sarah pulls a Sarah and runs off again.
-Cosima is also starting to think more and more that she is finding the cure for Sarah and Alison and the other clones and not for herself and that she is not going to survive to see the cure used, which is why she's been taking more dumb risks lately and why she's really determined to find the cure (she is going to be very bummed that Sarah couldn't bring back the book).
-Cosima also just really, really wants Sarah to be happy! And would do pretty much anything to help her be happy, which is why she gets kittens! and double dates! and other things Cosima thinks will bring happiness into Sarah's life (i am so sorry).

UM UM, i am sure there are more things but i can't think of them

Does Sarah ever think about the clone disease and the possibility that she could get it? ALSO, or instead, what would Sarah do if Delphine showed up in Camp?

I will do both!

As for the clone disease, she does think about it a lot, even though she tries not to. She trusts Cosima and since Cosima told her that she won't get it because it's tied up in their infertility, she worries about it not really for her personally, but for the other clones and especially for Kira. Since they have no idea why Sarah isn't infertile or how it happened, she figures there's a chance that even though she will avoid the clone disease, Kira might not. Which is so terrifying and awful that she doesn't want to think about it, but she totally spends some nights up worrying about it.

If Delphine showed up, Sarah... would not be very nice, but I don't think she'd go out of her way to be mean, either?? It would just be really awkward for her because she knows Delphine would keep trying to talk to her and be friends and ugh!! DELPHINE D:< But yeah, she would try to awkwardly keep out of her way if possible.

Does Cosima worry a lot about what she'll do if they update again and she dies at home?

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