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HI DO YOU LIKE ME MORE THAN COSIMA.

HEY HEY, don't be mean :(

You know I love you.

Besides, the real answer is she'd sell both of us off for Felix, probably.

love you too

and yeah, that sounds about right

no you're the worst

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Edited 2014-04-26 05:20 (UTC)

Sarah is actually more comfortable with Alison right now than she is with Cosima. She's definitely more used to Alison's behavior and dealing with Alison in person, so she's just kind of falling back on that during this weird acclimation period in camp. That dynamic is familiar to her, so she seeks it out. She enjoyed their drinking & bitching about Cosima session, even though Alison passed out and Sarah had to put her to bed, because that's just… the kind of behavior she expects from Alison, sob, and it was actually comforting at that moment.

Sarah actually feels really bad for Alison right now. She misses Kira a lot already, and feels like she's letting her down, but let's be real, she's been away from Kira and let her down before. It's not new. But for Alison, being away from her kids and not being able to protect them is something she's never done! And Sarah empathizes with her. She's actually kind of jealous of how much of a supermom Alison is (when she's not being creeped out by it) and kind of impressed by the rapport she's built up with the kids of camp, since whenever Sarah encounters one of them she's like "??? um." But Sarah knows what it's like to be a kid stuck without parents, so the fact that Alison is kiiind of taking over that role with some of the camp kids, even while she's missing her own kids, is something that Sarah really appreciates!

NOT THAT SHE'D SAY THAT TO ALISON UNLESS SHE GOT DRUNK/STUCK IN A TRUTH POST, THO.

REVERSE

On one hand, Alison was like "OH NO SARAH'S HERE, OUR COVER IS BLOWN, EVERYONE WILL FIND OUT, PANIC PANIC PANIC". On the other hand she was like "OH THANK GOD, SARAH'S HERE SHE CAN FIX THINGS AND TAKE OVER WATCHING COSIMA" because Sarah kind of became one of Alison's go-to people with problems and she really trusts Sarah after everything they've been through. Also, Alison has felt like she's internalizing even more than usual (ha!) because she doesn't really think she can confide in anyone in Camp about the whole "clone" thing. Cosima's basically a lost cause because the two of them approach the issue so differently, Alphonse is just a kid so she doesn't want to dump on him + she wants him to like her :(, and even though she likes Ruby and Eugene, she still very much views them as Cosima's friends who will probably report back to and side with her (which isn't a totally fair assessment, but it's Alison)! So, Sarah being here also provides her a sounding board, someone she can actually talk to about everything with someone who will understand her situation, hence the drunken rants! Because Alison really needed to unload.

Mostly though, Alison has really come to respect and trust Sarah in her own way? Possibly not to the same degree that she did with Beth, but she's also gotten to know Sarah much better than any of the other clones, so there is a certain level of familiarity and trust there! And even if she's still a bit judgey-judge from time-to-time, she really appreciates how much Sarah really has put her neck on the line for them and is pretty much is going to look to her for leadership in most situations, since Cosima cannot be trusted to MAKE GOOD DECISIONS. She's pretty terrified that the truth about what happened to Aynsley will come out and that Sarah might cut her out or whatever for being a terrible person, so she is never going to tell! NEVER!

Um also, after kind of being pushed into trying out the "Beth/Sarah-role" in Clone Club by Cosima and utterly failing she is so much more sympathetic to what Sarah was going through prior to Camp. I GET YOU, SISTER-CLONE ;o;b Let's go get drunk together more often.

I don't think Sarah can (or would) cut Alison out for the Aynsley thing considering she watched Beth throw herself in front of a train and then robbed her and took over her life. I think you're safe there, Alison.

... good point. But Alison also just doesn't want anyone to know what a horrible person she is anyway so.

Also is Sarah going to get involved in anything in Camp to keep her busy?

SHE PROBABLY WILL. She just needs time to get used to things. Right now her method of adapting to camp is mostly hanging out in her room when she's not talking to Alison or Cosima, sob. But once she gets her hands on a gun she'll probably be at the range practicing pretty regularly. The thing with Sarah is that before the whole Beth/whoa clones! thing happened, she clearly wasn't up to anything productive with her life, so it's something she might fall back into if she doesn't have stuff to keep her busy in camp. But having Alison and Cosima around will help with that.

Of all of Alison's current projects, which is she most looking forward to or enjoying?