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Oh, Cosima.

So Sarah always finds herself in this weird position with Cosima where she needs Cosima for information and to explain things and make things clear, but at the same time she is constantly feeling like she has to save Cosima from herself. "Cosima, stay away from Delphine." "Cosima, stay away from DYAD." It's the same in Camp except now she's like "Cosima, stop telling people we're clones." "Cosima, stop LEAVING YOUR DOOR UNLOCKED THERE ARE ZOMBIES OUTSIDE what the hell is wrong with you??" At the same time she tries not to judge too harshly because god knows making dumb decisions is a genetic trait with them and Sarah makes enough of her own.

(In that vein, it's interesting for Sarah to be the voice of reason, like, ever?? Before she met Cosima and Alison she was always the obvious fuckup, and it's kind of nice to be on an even level with someone, even if that person is her genetic identical.)

Anyway, in a lot of ways she feels like she and Cosima are more on the same page than she and Alison are, in the sense that they're both more… freewheeling… less "adult"… So it's good to have Cosima around to balance things when she's had too much of Alison. At the same time, this is like the first time she and Cosima have been around each other in person for more than a few hours at a time, so there's some awkwardness and trying to figure out how their relationship's going to be, but Sarah is hopeful that they can hang out and not have everything be horrible? She's hesitant to use the term "friend," but. Yeah.

Also she's super bummed that Cosima is sick and doesn't know how to deal with that at all so she's just… not. '-'

REVERSE ME

I RESERVE THE RIGHT TO ADD MORE TO THIS IF I THINK OF THINGS

Cosima is glad that Sarah's in Camp despite the huge blow up it caused when she arrived, just like she was glad when Alison arrived even if it made things much more complicated. Cosima was in Camp for a solid few months on her own and even though she was more removed from Sarah and Alison's lives back home, she missed their phone calls and skype sessions and having someone to bounce clone ideas off of. Cosima wants to get to know them better! IT'S INTERESTING. She seriously sometimes feels like taking notes on their reactions to different things, sorry guys. Annnd having Sarah's blood sample is going to help her with a research, so yeah, there's that too.

Cosima knows that Sarah is usually the clone with a plan (even if it's a terrible one) and so she's glad Sarah is there and can help them if clone killers show up or anything like that and Cosima knows that Sarah is so much better at handling Alison than she is, so that's a huge relief too. But beyond that, Cosima does think that Sarah and her could be legit friends if given the time to get to know each other and could relate to each other in a way that Cosima can't really relate to Alison, so she's all for Camp giving them that opportunity.

Cosima does feel horrible for telling people about Kira. The last thing Cosima wants Sarah to think is that she doesn't care about what happens to Kira because she does, she just doesn't really get it to the level that Sarah and Alison do? Cosima isn't a mom and in her giving up of that information it showed. Cosima can get caught up in SCIENCE and FINDING ANSWERS and forget about people's feelings which is totally what happened when she causally mentioned Kira to a few people. Cosima knows she can't take it back, but she hopes Sarah will forgive her for that.

On the other hand Cosima is not sorry for telling people that she was a clone, especially when it comes to Sarah. Sarah's told her family! She was the first to break the first rule of clone club! And Cosima will continue to stand by that she couldn't take being the only person to know and wasn't in the wrong when she told Eugene, Alphonse, and Ruby who are basically her Camp family. SORRY SARAH, but you started it.

DID I MISS THINGS. PROBABLY.

Sarah's opinions on Cosima and Ruby's relationship/

She's pretty okay with it. Mostly because if Cosima is in a relationship with Ruby, it means Delphine is more or less out of the picture? 8'D Or at least that's what she'd like to believe. ANYWAY. Like she said when she first got to camp, she really doesn't care at all that Cosima is into girls, so that's pretty much a nonissue. She thinks Ruby seems nice, and pretty cool, so she's happy if Cosima is happy. And she wants Cosima to be happy! The only thing that bothered her was the fact that Cosima told Ruby about the clones/Kira thing, and that was because it seems like a pattern to Sarah. A pattern of Cosima telling her girlfriends things she shouldn't be. :I So yeah overall she's happy that Cosima is a) not moping over Delphine, and b) with someone who seems like a chill person.

What does Cosima think about the whole castle/camper data issue?

HI DO YOU LIKE ME MORE THAN COSIMA.

HEY HEY, don't be mean :(

You know I love you.

Besides, the real answer is she'd sell both of us off for Felix, probably.

love you too

and yeah, that sounds about right

no you're the worst

>:

Edited 2014-04-26 05:20 (UTC)

Sarah is actually more comfortable with Alison right now than she is with Cosima. She's definitely more used to Alison's behavior and dealing with Alison in person, so she's just kind of falling back on that during this weird acclimation period in camp. That dynamic is familiar to her, so she seeks it out. She enjoyed their drinking & bitching about Cosima session, even though Alison passed out and Sarah had to put her to bed, because that's just… the kind of behavior she expects from Alison, sob, and it was actually comforting at that moment.

Sarah actually feels really bad for Alison right now. She misses Kira a lot already, and feels like she's letting her down, but let's be real, she's been away from Kira and let her down before. It's not new. But for Alison, being away from her kids and not being able to protect them is something she's never done! And Sarah empathizes with her. She's actually kind of jealous of how much of a supermom Alison is (when she's not being creeped out by it) and kind of impressed by the rapport she's built up with the kids of camp, since whenever Sarah encounters one of them she's like "??? um." But Sarah knows what it's like to be a kid stuck without parents, so the fact that Alison is kiiind of taking over that role with some of the camp kids, even while she's missing her own kids, is something that Sarah really appreciates!

NOT THAT SHE'D SAY THAT TO ALISON UNLESS SHE GOT DRUNK/STUCK IN A TRUTH POST, THO.

REVERSE

On one hand, Alison was like "OH NO SARAH'S HERE, OUR COVER IS BLOWN, EVERYONE WILL FIND OUT, PANIC PANIC PANIC". On the other hand she was like "OH THANK GOD, SARAH'S HERE SHE CAN FIX THINGS AND TAKE OVER WATCHING COSIMA" because Sarah kind of became one of Alison's go-to people with problems and she really trusts Sarah after everything they've been through. Also, Alison has felt like she's internalizing even more than usual (ha!) because she doesn't really think she can confide in anyone in Camp about the whole "clone" thing. Cosima's basically a lost cause because the two of them approach the issue so differently, Alphonse is just a kid so she doesn't want to dump on him + she wants him to like her :(, and even though she likes Ruby and Eugene, she still very much views them as Cosima's friends who will probably report back to and side with her (which isn't a totally fair assessment, but it's Alison)! So, Sarah being here also provides her a sounding board, someone she can actually talk to about everything with someone who will understand her situation, hence the drunken rants! Because Alison really needed to unload.

Mostly though, Alison has really come to respect and trust Sarah in her own way? Possibly not to the same degree that she did with Beth, but she's also gotten to know Sarah much better than any of the other clones, so there is a certain level of familiarity and trust there! And even if she's still a bit judgey-judge from time-to-time, she really appreciates how much Sarah really has put her neck on the line for them and is pretty much is going to look to her for leadership in most situations, since Cosima cannot be trusted to MAKE GOOD DECISIONS. She's pretty terrified that the truth about what happened to Aynsley will come out and that Sarah might cut her out or whatever for being a terrible person, so she is never going to tell! NEVER!

Um also, after kind of being pushed into trying out the "Beth/Sarah-role" in Clone Club by Cosima and utterly failing she is so much more sympathetic to what Sarah was going through prior to Camp. I GET YOU, SISTER-CLONE ;o;b Let's go get drunk together more often.

I don't think Sarah can (or would) cut Alison out for the Aynsley thing considering she watched Beth throw herself in front of a train and then robbed her and took over her life. I think you're safe there, Alison.

... good point. But Alison also just doesn't want anyone to know what a horrible person she is anyway so.

Also is Sarah going to get involved in anything in Camp to keep her busy?

SHE PROBABLY WILL. She just needs time to get used to things. Right now her method of adapting to camp is mostly hanging out in her room when she's not talking to Alison or Cosima, sob. But once she gets her hands on a gun she'll probably be at the range practicing pretty regularly. The thing with Sarah is that before the whole Beth/whoa clones! thing happened, she clearly wasn't up to anything productive with her life, so it's something she might fall back into if she doesn't have stuff to keep her busy in camp. But having Alison and Cosima around will help with that.

Of all of Alison's current projects, which is she most looking forward to or enjoying?

first impressions?

Sarah is super not here for being forced into trusting someone she hasn't vetted herself, so the whole situation with Eugene (and Ruby and Alphonse) is something that makes her uncomfortable. HOWEVER, the situation is what it is, and Eugene knows about the clone thing & Kira, so Sarah feels like she has two choices: either alienate Eugene and risk it, or try to be friends with him and make sure he keeps the info he has close to his chest. She's going for the second option.

All that aside, she does think Eugene seems like a nice guy, so she's not... particularly worried? Their dynamic so far has been pretty casual and Sarah likes that. She's cautiously optimistic about him and what their relationship could be. Right now she's still taking it easy with him, but she appreciates that he's been helping her settle in and been around for her to talk to when she's needed it. (She was kind of "ugh, really?" when he implied that she needed to check on Cosima because in Sarah's opinion that was between the two of them and Eugene shouldn't have been involved, but that's over now.) OVERALL she thinks Eugene seems like a chill guy and she'd like to get to know him better.

Reverse?

Eugene had heard a lot less about Sarah before she showed up than he had Alison, and the little he had heard implied she was kind of... aggressive. So between that and Alison's initial interrogation after she found out he knew, Eugene was deeefinitely expecting a much more hostile reception from Sarah than the one he got. Which made the reality of things... a nice surprise? He's kind of relieved Sarah's been relatively chill with him personally, since while he doesn't have an investment in becoming friends, he'd definitely rather stay friendly -- not only is he aware that he was given access to information she would really rather have had a say in him having, he doesn't want to give either her or Alison another reason to call Cosima's judgement on that into question (in addition to, you know, all the reasons they already have). SO... I think "cautiously optimistic" is a good fit for both of them. things are for sure already going better than his best expectations, and he's interested in getting to know her outside what he's been told, which was apparently missing some important context.

how is Sarah adjusting to the idea of camp in general?

SO, obviously for Brianna: thoughts on Jason?

OH, JASON *u*

Right now Brianna is into the idea of Jason more than the actuality of Jason, since... she doesn't really know him much. She thinks he's hot, and he has this aura of being a leader and a hero around him, and that naturally attracts her (and reminds her of Sam, her heroic leader from home). The fact that Jason is an older!!! guy but he still kissed her and treated her like an equal instead of a little kid just makes her more attracted to him. SO SHE'S PRETTY INTO HIM. She doesn't expect it to actually go anywhere, though, and is mostly pushing it because she's 1) bored, 2) single, and 3) been told not to by Alison.

So she does like Jason but doesn't really know him, and she just wants to flirt and maybe kiss him instead of actually forming a real relationship or friendship. Sob, Brianna.

Reverse?

SORRY THIS IS LATE.

Oh Brianna. (That's really cute, though.)

Well, Brianna does fall into his type. You know, the whole cute, smart and violent type is his thing. Just a little younger than he'd probably like that, though. From what he's gotten to see of her, she's a lot of fun. Including the whole threatening him with a machete. Strong girls are great. He's also learned very quickly just how to charm her and likes to see how she reacts to that. Basically, he'll let her think she's in complete control and everyone is happy.

Hey, right now? He's totally fine with the flirting and the ~~camp induced~~ kissing without the relationship motive. He wouldn't mind a friendship, but if she doesn't seem invested in that kind of thing, he'll let it slide. She's fun, it works.

FIRST IMPRESSIONS and any updates on Brianna + Al? I AM GREEDY

Al and Brianna: NO MAJOR UPDATES Al is pretty much Brianna's best friend in Camp right now (besides Jack) and she'd pretty much do anything for him. BUDDIES. Look, I'm reading a book for you, Alphonse!! If that's not friendship, nothing is. :I

Al and Sarah: Sarah is super uncomfortable around Alphonse, sob. The combination of HE'S A KID + HE'S SO POLITE + HE HAS SENSITIVE INFORMATION ABOUT ME + HE DOESN'T HAVE A BODY is just... a lot to take in right now. She doesn't dislike him at all! But he's definitely not the kind of teenager she's used to and she doesn't know how to talk to him. Definitely not like her skater minions at home. '-'

She's warming up to him, though. She just needs time to settle in more and get used to the idea of Alphonse being around. Cosima and Alison have both said things to her along the line of "you have things in common" which she really, really doubts, but... she's not like opposed to getting to know Alphonse more. In fact, she wants to, because she wants to make sure he never, ever tells anyone what he knows. 8|

Reverse!

so clearly Felix makes fantastic first impressions. right?

(also I'm kind of curious what Brianna thinks of him)

Sarah: SUPER NOT HERE FOR THAT. Felix alienated her immediately and with Sarah, it's really hard to get past that. She's judged that based on his reaction when he met her, he's not trustworthy and he's potentially dangerous, and despite him saying that he worked things out with Cosima (which she believes is true, because lol Cosima), she's going to need way more time before she starts to get over their initial meeting. I'LL BE KEEPING AN EYE ON YOU, BUDDY.

Brianna: Thinks Felix is pretty okay! She feels connected to him based on the whole... dead thing, but he's an adult and she trusts very few adults. She's fine talking to him and getting to know him, though, and doesn't have any reason to dislike him. She thinks it's cool that he tried to mutiny somebody... that's a badass thing to do.

Reverse!

For Sarah....y-yeah, I mean. This reaction isn't one that's much of a surprise to him! He is actually MUCH the same way - if things start out badly with someone, he takes a REALLY long time to come around. So he recognizes that, and while it'd be easier if Sarah didn't distrust him...he's not exactly going to hold it against her. He...really doesn't have much of a read on her at all, which makes sense given that they've talked all of twice. He thinks maybe if things hadn't started out the way they did, they might have gotten along, sort of? She's clearly very straightforward, which is nice. But, um. Yeah, the thing is that Felix doesn't form connections very quickly in Camp, and he really only cares what a few people think of him, so ACTUALLY. He. Probably won't try too hard to start getting on her good side, to be honest. He really did mean it when he offered to do something to make it up to her, but since she's turned down that offer...He'll continue to be polite and vaguely friendly and try not to make her more suspicious, but he's not really going to go out of his way to make her like him.

Brianna! Uh. She's...he really doesn't know what to do with her! (this may or may not be reflected in the number of times i've dropped their threads, oops.) Felix isn't great with most kids, and Brianna's just..very different. Blase about terrible things. It's hard to know how to interact with that, especially for him, because...he'd know what to do with an adult in that situation. But a kid? Not so much. So, yeah! He doesn't dislike her either, he's just likely to continue being a little awkward around her. (also he's STILL a little 'UH WHAT' about that whole chopping a body into pieces thing.)

First impressions?

Sarah likes Sam a lot! It's nice for her to be able to hang with a fellow Brit; it makes her feel more at home in a weird, weird place. They have an easy dynamic already and she thinks Sam is a really friendly guy. She doesn't trust him, but she likes him. She just wants to hang out and share stories and have someone she doesn't need to get really heavy with.

The revelation about his zombie infestation at home was a bummer and made her feel kind of awkward. Like, how do you respond to that?? She doesn't want anything bad to happen to him, but she's like "la la la not making attachments here la la la" so she probably won't mention it if she doesn't have to.

Reverse!

Sam really likes Sarah for similar reasons! Like, being outnumbered by non-British people was kind of weird for him coming from Abel so it's nice to have that, plus she seems tough and has a sense of humor that he appreciates.

As far as the zombie stuff goes, he's actually glad she has an appropriate reaction to their existing, but he's probably going to do like he does with Alison, where he avoids bringing anything up about home. Though it is pretty much everyday life, so little things might slip every once in a while.

What are the things Sarah likes best/least about camp?

BEST: Cosima and Alison are there, time is apparently frozen at home, Cosima has extra time to work on curing herself, and she actually has her own room and isn't constantly moving from place to place. The fact that there's no real schedule and she can focus on what she wants to do and who she wants to talk to is cool, too. Annnd a few of the people she's met are okay, shhh.

WORST: Pretty much everything else, sob. Like, no sugar? No sex? Marcy? What??? She misses Kira and Felix. And she's sure the entire facility is just a huge, elaborate, really annoying experiment in itself, so it kind of tinges everything with a layer of "this sucks" even when it's something that normally wouldn't be that bad.

Rec Sam's canon to me! I've heard things, but I want to hear more things, yes.