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I am sorry. [Heartfelt. Sorrowful. Emotions he nearly never exhibited in session, much less to an authentic patient -- as opposed to one of his "personal projects". Chilton glanced at Sarah's hand, having half an inclination to reach over and give it a small, human squeeze. Offer a connection, if only for a brief moment.

He thought better of it.]

And you? Are you tired of running?

[This wasn't about Chilton, or even MK. He recalibrated the conversation back to its sole focal point.]

No. [ She pauses, then, actually thinking about it. ] Maybe. I want to end it, let my daughter live like a normal kid. If that means no more running, then I'm done running.

Self-sacrifice. [He tilts his head, reconsidering the words.] Well -- in a manner of speaking. You are willing to change your behavior, your strategy, for the sake of your daughter. Speaks to your motivation.

[As a good parent, but that goes without saying. Family between sisters, between mother and daughter -- it seemed so thematic for her life.]

Is it frustrating for you? Being here, in this dimension, where we are essentially timeless? With respect to our natural environment, I mean. Whenever I have returned, it was as if none of this had ever happened. As if I hadn't ever left.

Yeah. Sometimes. When I first got here I thought of it like a holiday, but no one wants to be on holiday for two years. And like you said, when I go back I don't even remember the break.

That idea alone can be stressful for imPorts. Maybe not in a highly traumatic sense, but the idea of... The futility, I suppose. It invites existentialism.

[A glance over, to see if she resonated with that.]

Yeah. [ She sighs and takes another drink. ] Yeah.

It doesn't seem to bother my sister, though. Cosima. She got married here.

Do you see that as something of a betrayal? Or is "betrayal" too harsh a word, despite her finding happiness here?

[A pointed questioned, loaded with a certain breed of bullet. He tried to scale it back, but might have been a little too late.]

[ She gives him a piercing look. She hears the pointedness of his question, but she's not sure what it means. ]

I find it weird, but not a betrayal. What's fucked up is she's barely told her wife about what's going on with us at home. It's like that's not important.

[ Unlike to Sarah, whose entire identity is wrapped up in being a clone and fighting The System and who has no idea what she'd even do if their war were to suddenly end—probably why she's so restless in this universe, where everything is on hold. She clearly finds the idea of Cosima not telling her wife all the details about their life at home more disturbing than the actual marriage itself. ]

You are far more stable than the average person might have been, you know. [It was authentically a compliment, although Chilton's manner of speaking -- as if she were some specimen worth notation -- might not have conveyed as much.] The fact that you aren't blaming others for circumstances that are at least partially beyond human control... It is a sign of emotional maturity.

[Might sound like the obvious decision to Sarah, but Chilton has certainly met enough personality typed who'd accuse betrayal.]

And regarding her wife, would she be responsive to advice from a third party? Or is that a searingly bad idea?

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