ic contact; MoM

[coppelganger]

Hey, it's Sarah. Leave a message.

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[magnitudes]

*punkcess my bad

[coppelganger]

i refuse on principle.

[magnitudes]

what if it was my dying wish

[coppelganger]

[ There's a long pause before Sarah texts back. A good five minutes where before she'd been responding within one. ]

is that supposed to be funny?

[magnitudes]

yes?

I can't be pathetic and miserable about forever

[coppelganger]

it is possible to not be miserable and pathetic without resorting to shitty jokes.
surprising, i know.

[magnitudes]

gotta stay ahead of the game. did I hit a saw spot?

[coppelganger]

piss off. go to disney world yourself, make jokes about dying to mickey bloody mouse.

[magnitudes]

hey
I died, I get to cope how I need to cope
everyone wants me to be back to being me
did you miss the part where I'm a shitty person

[coppelganger]

whatever. go cope with someone else. i don't want to hear that shit. or read it.

[magnitudes]

( There's a good half hour before she replies. )

Sarah
I need you

I can't do this without you

[coppelganger]

[ Another few minutes go by. ]

i'm sorry i was harsh.
you know i'll still go with you to disney.

[magnitudes]

I was a dickhead
I'm sorry
I'm still so upset all the time and I start saying shit I know is fucked up but it's like I can't stop
and it's the most bullshit feeling because I know I can and I should stop but I just don't try hard enough
I hate when people say they can't help it, it's such bullshit

[coppelganger]

i know you're upset. you've got every right to be. no one expects you to be okay 100% of the time.

[magnitudes]

being okay and being a decent human being don't go hand in hand
i can part b without being part a

[coppelganger]

don't beat yourself up over it, yeah? it's gonna happen.

[magnitudes]

no, that's what bar fights are for

( a separate text, almost immediately: )

sorry

[coppelganger]

yeah, sure.

[magnitudes]

how do you feel about baklava?
i could make some

[coppelganger]

don't strain yourself now.

[magnitudes]

is that sarcasm or actual concern about the process of handmade phyllo pastry

[coppelganger]

a little of both

[magnitudes]

it's therapeutic, you dag

[coppelganger]

if you really wanna cook for me i'm not gonna say no.

[magnitudes]

I'm cooking for me
you can have the leftovers